Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Diagnosis: LUNG CANCER

Welcome,For those of you that are new to my site,and perhaps some regulars,I have decided to do a re-cap on the last 4 months.
I believe I have been drifting into other areas of emotion lately,rather than explaining why I am here.
Emotion is the very biggest part of this for me,but I will remind you all medically why I am here in the first place.

In October of 2005, aroutine chest x-ray revealed a spot on my lung.A CT scan was then taken on January 26th 2006.My doctor called me into his office on February1st.I was to see a surgeon February15th.Well.I figured it was to see about a small biopsy ,just to see if there was anything to worry about.Well, Surprise,Surprise.A ten minute discussion revealed to me that he would perform a "Lobectomy" on my lung on February28th.Whoa,just a minute here,I could hear myself thinking and sinking.That ,I believe is when the shock set in and is still the same shock as with me now.
Grant it,I have come a long way.I was very blessed in my case.Two times over.I made the operation,which were not good odds.I was able to be operated on as my cancer was caught at an early stage ,and had not spread.
I still have shotness of breath and my EMPHYSEMA seems to be in the forfront lately.The loss of a third of my lung did not help the breathing ,but saved my Life.
Emotionally,I try to take things day by day.I still make plans for the future ,as that keeps me going.
I am fit and able,mentally and physically ,and to see me you would never know anything was wrong.
I recovered completely from the operation,very quickly.

Next step now for me is the follow-up appointments that will keep up to date with the CANCER returning in my LUNG,BREAST,BRAIN or other places.
Not a lot to look forward to,with that respect,but for now I look forward to today!
I hope ,and suggest you read my previous posts for more explanations of why I am able to be here.




Sunday, July 16, 2006

You can Bitch,You can Cry,but you cant RUN!

The "emphysema is starting to show itself
I went from walking the mall to not getting to the car to get to the mall.
I have always had plans to visit Las Vegas,and walk the famous"strip". I suppose I can't.Goes to show we should "Do it Now" in our lives and not put everything off til tomorrow.What good is planning?
I do have plans for tommorow.I am having a "core biopsy" done on my breast.The after math warnings are reading to me a lot more scariar than my "Lobectomy,"{the removal of a lobe on the lung}.
The warnings consist of bleeding and/or infection.That is not the bad part.The real hard blow comes when they get the results.
When I get the dreaded results that there is malignancy,I again will have to face some curves in the road.
I was blessed and fortunate to have survived,so far, the Lobectomy and the lung cancer,I just Pray my spirits will stay up to get through this round again.
I will of course be reading and educating my self on "breast cancer and the options of treatment.I would like to have choices this time as to my treatment.
I am fully aware that this is not going to be a bed of roses,but I am fully aware also that I am quite prepared.Now,That is a up viewpoint to leave you on for now.
Til next time
Please Take Care of Yourself.



Sunday, July 09, 2006

Just a little more time,SOMETIME,Please!

LUNG CANCER:One more month,one more week,Please Lord,just one more day.
I seem to be running so fast and going nowhere slowly.There seems to be so much more that I want to be accomplished,so much more to do.The thing is...I do not know what that is yet.Sure ,there are the basics.I must see that as a mother, I have left my children good memories of me.I must assure my husband that every moment I have spent with him was never wasted.I must give calls to everyone that I remember that have helped or touched me in my life.I must,I must.
I also MUST remember to remember myself through all this .SOMETIMES , now I want to stop and just reflect on what has happened to me so quickly.SOMETIMES, I want to be selfish and rest.SOMETIMES, I don't want to think of anything but flowers and sunshine,and SOMETIMES, I just don't want to Think!
Lately,as I feel that I don't accomplish everything I want to,I feel a little let down.
I know I am doing well ,with what I have done,but I hope I never stop trying.
SOMETIMES,I just wish I had a little more TIME.


Saturday, July 01, 2006


Yes!The title is for real.If you are new here and have not read my previous posts I will update you.

In May2002,I was diagnosed with" cirrhosis of the liver".I was a heavy drinker at the time, and with the fact that I hardly ate I was down to 89lbs.The Dr. said I had maybe 3 months to live if I didnt stop drinking.Well, my right mind set in and I was able to quit the drinking.
My doctors were amazed at my recovery as I looked and felt a 100% better.
By this time also ,I was having shortness of breath,but I was so happy in my sobriety ,that I didnt pay attention.That was in 2004.
Time went on ,[mind you,I fought every day to stay sober} and then in October 2005 I got a call from my doctor,saying The EKG showed a Heart attack! Well,then the tests began.I had a pulmonary function test.The test measures breathing capacities.Well,I Failed.An xray was ordered of my chest and I was told there was a spot on my lung.
Well,My mom was coming for christmas that year and no way did I want to find out any bad news.
I waited til January 26th to have a CT scan.February 1st my Dr. called and said I was to see a surgeon on Feb.15th.He arranged for a "LOBECTOMY"{removal of a lobe of the lung}on February 28th.
I made it!!! AGAIN.
I am here to tell you basically that there is some HOPE, after Diagnosis ,for some people who are fortunate enough to be diagnosed early enough.
I am a very possitive person and I believe that Attitudes play a great role in Recovery.

Thank You for coming by,and please,Read my previous posts.

Believe B.C


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