Wednesday, October 25, 2006


Good Afternoon;
Have you ever sat and wondered ,What you were here for?
Do you ever think that there is a different plan for you,perhaps another path to travel,than the one your on?
I have sure been changing a lot of my thoughts lately.I definitely BELIEVE,that there is a great plan for us,already drawn out.How else can I explain all the great escapes I have made in the last 10 years.
Every time I have been diagnosed with a life threatening illness,I have survived!I was given 3 months to live in 2002,and was told I needed a liver transplant.I continued to drink for a few more months than,just woke up one morning and never drank again.My liver managed to maintain itself and the bad numbers came down.One of my first escapes.
In January 1996,I had a mammogram that showed a tumor in my breast.I went through the denial for a few months,then I went into the hospital,totally expecting,and was actually prepared for,a breast biopsy,which at that point might have been a mastectomy.I got blessed again,as the Dr. on that day,thought she would have another look at the xray.She decided that it was only 6 cysts and aspirated them.I escaped again.
May 30th,2005.I have a car accident.The car was totalled.I walked away,just suffering whiplash and a bruise or two.Another blessing,miracle,or all part of the PLAN?
This brings up to now.
February 1st; 2006;Diagnosis:Emphysema and Lung Cancer.
Question: Can I escape from this????
Maybe I can and maybe I can't.I really do believe there is a Plan for us,and when it is your time,There is NO ESCAPE.
Do we call these miracles,blessings ,or just a whisper before the scream?I do believe that someone has plans for my life,but darned if I can figure out what they are.Then again,If it IS already plotted out,doI just sit here and wait.?I know I can not sit still for more than five minutes so I really do not plan to wait around.I plan to take that first step,and know that I am definitely not alone and that I do have the strength and the courage to ESCAPE again.I also plan on having a good time looking for the right road to travel,and with the luck I have had lately,I will surely enjoy the trip.
Now with my positive attitude back again ,I bid you adieu for now.

I really must say a big THANK YOU to all of you who have left your comments.Each and every word from each and everyone of you,help make my days so much brighter..



Saturday, October 14, 2006


.The sun is shining ever so brightly,and I feel Good!
I have been writing this journal since April and have come to realise that a lot of my new readers are not familiar with the gist of this blog.I have archived all my posts,but to me they are not in the order I would like.I would really like to start from the beginning on this,if you can bear with me;
In June of 2002 I was diagnosed with "cirrhosis" of the liver.I was told I had three months to live.I stopped drinking ,on my own ,and my livers enzymes have almost returned to normal.I was a mess back then.I had gotten down to 89 pounds and was very weak and sick,I was dying.
I was,and still am on the recovery for that.Now I have a lot more on my plate.
Last year I had an EKG and it showed I had had a heart attack.I went to a doctor and he said that the EKG could have shown a disorder of the lungs.I had a chest x-ray and a Pulmonary Function Test.I received a call in late Oct.05,that I definitely had pneumonia,but there was another spot on my lung that they wanted to investigate further.On January 26th a CT scan revealed a tumor on the right lung.I saw a surgeon on February15th and my "lobectomy" on my lung was performed on February28th.I made the operation,and I am still alive today ,22 months later.
Now,I hope that you are up to date.
My idea,on this blog ,in the beginning ,was that it helped me get through a lot by being able to "Talk" on here.I have now realised another purpose,and that is to maybe help someone who is going through this to understand the HUMAN side of this dreaded Cancer.
I have had all the steps to climb.I have had the anger,the sorrow,the Why Me?,all of those emotions.I also have another emotion,and that my friends is HOPE.
I still have my fears of my liver failing,I dread that my cancer will spread even further,even quicker,but there is something inside me that keeps me going.I am sure there is some reason that I am still here,and I want to keep searching just to see what it is.
Please read my previous posts as it will be easier to understand,then if you are just reading a page or two.
Thank You all for listening,and remember......

Monday, October 09, 2006


HAPPY THANKSGIVING! How many times do we complain?How many times have we wished we were someone or somewhere else?

I have been counting my blessings lately.
I have a home.I have a car, {an older one}.
I have a husband and three great grown children.

How many times do You count your blessings?

I can walk,I can talk,I am still a little able to get around.I am so ever Thankful!

I have had surgery{lobectomy}.a removal of part of my lung Feb.28th.
I have had a mammogram that was iffy and I waited for 14 days after a core biopsy of my breast to find out,It wasn't Cancer.
I sur vived my bout of alcohol abuse and "cirrhosis" of the liver in 2002.
I am alive almost two years later after being Diagnosed with LUNG CANCER.
And you know what?,I count my blessings every day.
I can whine and complain all day ,then I hear the news or from a friend that someone has passed away or has cancer or has died ,and I stop and think How very Lucky I am.

And ,you know what?I count my blessings every night.

I count to ten now before I complain about mundane things.
I never want to Die with regrets and I am now counting days, as I have few left.
I am really saying,Do what you have to do NOW,




welcome.It is a blessing to be here with you today. I will begin from the last post .It has been awhile since I posted and hope I can catch...