Friday, December 29, 2006


My husband got through his operation.I think in my last post I mentioned that he had a surgery planned in January.Well,We went to his pre admission check up,and after examination,they arranged "IMMEDIATE" surgery.The operation was four hours.It is a week today that we were wondering what effects would happen and When?
The doctors advised us that he will be recovering for at least 3 months.
My Christmas Blessing is to have him back with me.We have been given a little longer.

My health is holding up.My lungs are painful at times lately though.I find it is starting to hurt when I breathe.I know though that I must kick in more now that my husband needs me,so I will be strong enough.
I see my cancer Doctor at the end of January.I am getting worried on that appointment.I feel like the cancer has spread into my other lung.If the cancer isn't spreading,then as we speak I must have pneumonia,again."The lesser of two evils".

I am strong and will be able to get through these tests.I will be looking forward to the New Year with hope.
I also know Now,that the FOCUS is not on "ME" .My husband has spent the last four years at my beck and call.He was in hospital after hospital wih me .
Sometimes I feel like I want the spotlight on "me",but this time I want the light to shine on him.
I know that he can maybe live a normal life to a ripe age,if this new aorta valve works alright.
I know that "cancer is what it is."I would much rather put effort into a living plant,than a dying one.
I do promise myself ,that I will take very good care of myself!
I am a very strong woman!
Thank You all again for your readings of my story.I appreciate that you take the time to comment,and most of all I appreciate YOU.

Wishing You All a Very Happy and Healthy New Year


Thursday, December 14, 2006


My doctor appointment is January 31st.I will find out if I have reached "stage 2" in my "lung cancer'.I have just had and am having a new crisis..My husband has been discovered to have an aneurysm in his aorta.In laymen terms ,he can have a heart attack at any second,
We went to the hospital 4 days ago,they were ready to operate with open heart surgery.He was told that they would operate on January 2nd.
I have always been one to be possitive.I am now utterly in shock with this happening.
How much more can one handle.
My husband and I have been together for 41 years.He looks after me.Now What.
I am myself still recovering from my"lobectomy'8 months ago.We are still both in our fifties.This is one heck of a test or something.
My husband has always looked after me and all the responsibilities.I do not want to focus on me right now either so it is tough with me knowing that I will die soon,and even more frightening to not know when or if my husband is not far behind me.
I am so scared.
I am more afraid now,then when I was diagnosed with "lung cancer'.
My husband,if he survives,will have a six month recovery period.I do not drive and we live in the rural area.I do have 2 sons,but they do not have a car.I will need to be with him,so I might stay in a hostel til he can come home.
The dignosis of cancer is the most devastating,but losing someone you love sure comes close.
Thank You again for letting me share some of my problems,as well as my accomplishments with you.It feels good to talk.
Toward the Christmas and during the New Year I will probably not post for awhile. love hearing from you all'

Wishing You a very "MERRY CHRISTMAS" and a HAPPY NEW YEAR!




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