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Tuesday, September 12, 2017

Miracles Do Happen,Again

Welcome,my faithful friends.
I have amazing news.
I have just gone through the terminal cancer.
I have had faith,prayers,and I believed.
On May 10th,The doctors report that the 2cm tumor has resolved,despite no therapy.
The doctors have not seen this.They will do another scan in November.
I have been Blessed!
Sorry for the lack of posts,but I am back.
I want to tell you to Never,ever,give up.
I believe God has a reason to allow me to move on.
I can tell you though,its tough to Live,when you are told there is no hope.
Financially,its been tough,but I am ready to begin my Life again.
I wanted to share this news,and offer my prayers to all of you,and your loved ones.
Prayers,saved me!

May God Bless all of you who have followed me and sent your prayers.

So Remember...

Don't Stop Believing


Tuesday, December 20, 2016

The Death Sentence

Welcome,my faithful friends.
I am so grateful to be writing this post to you.
I was told by the doctors,all of them,that I would pass,by December 5th.
Please,don't ask about when,just have now.
For you first time readers,a bit of a catch up on the last year.
My first diagnosis of lung cancer was 2006.I had a lobe removed in one lung and carried on,without recurrence until 2013.I started all the symptoms again,coughing,tired,breathless.
It wasn't til November last yr. That I got a chest scan that revealed a 2cm.tumor on my wind pipe.It is on the "cardina",which is a lymph node..
My diagnosis is "Adeno Carcinoma with lymph node involvement"
The oncologists told me they could not give therapy.Radiation could kill me,but surely put me on oxygen.
The chemo doctor had the same opinion.
There is no cure or hope for me.
I was sent home to die.I have no palliative care,can't afford is,so my husband,who has his own issues helps me.
I have a Do Not Recusicate order,and just told that I will probably stop breathing,but call 911,when I think it's time.
What a horrible situation.Sent home to die.I haven't seen a doctor,no blood tests,no one examining me,just some pain meds.
Well,You know me.I am having a hard time with this,even though it's true.
I still Believe,I will live awhile longer.
I am in some pain,but My spirit is good.I have equal good and bad days,and I pray a lot.
Thanks to all of you,friends,and family,maybe we can set a precedent!
Then,in reality,this might be my last post.
I have spoken on here for 10 yrs.I hope that because I have shared,and you have let me,that when you feel emotionally done,please just remember.......

Don't Stop Believing!


Wednesday, April 27, 2016

When it Rains,it Pours

Welcome;Yes my friends,2016 has not been good for my family.I have been feeling tough for 3 years,with my situations.Three years ago,I began caring for my husband with his heart.I am 65,he is 69.We have been
Married 50 yrs.Well,I found out in November2015,I had incurable lung cancer.He took a bad Heart attack,on January 10th.He now has to look after me.I am not able to work,so that puts more pressure on.He can not look after our 1 acre property,and,on and on.I have been trying to save to pay for funeral,but never seems to work out.
It is so hard to actually pay,plan your own funeral.
My government paid me 500$ a month on disability,and when I turned 65 last month,they cut my cpp pension to 62$.Now,tell me,How does a woman with cancer alone live in Canada with 62$.This has just happened,and I intend to challenge this,so send me hope,Yeah!
Well,physically,I am so tired.I am scared to lie in my bed,just waiting to die.I have no doctor,just the main cancer care people.They do not see me anymore.They spent an hour,with no compassion and sent me home. I am to wait for the pain,then go to emergeny care,T!he organs will shut down one at a time,come when you have pains..Unbelievable!
We are losing our home,our car.I could see the car,but we are rural,and couldn't live without transport.
I know my regular readers over 10 yrs,are saying,she's angry,and your right.
Maybe this post isn't as positive,but it doesn't mean it not.
So Remember til next time
Don't Stop Believing.

Tuesday, April 19, 2016

Fatal Diagnosis

Welcome.The chest scan,the PET scan,and the Brochial
Biopsy revealed that the subcarinal lymph node has a large mass on it.It is a lymph node just below the trachea(wind pipe),on a branch with other nodes.
I saw the cancer care team radiologist,and he said he would do aggressive radiation,but I have too much lung volume loss from my lobotomy in my first stage.
Lung cancer in 2006.He will not risk it until palliative,as it would leave me on oxygen or kill me.
Then I saw the chemo doctor,and he said my cancer was incurable in me,because my body is not healthy enough,and it would not cure it anyway.He also told me,first appointment,Get your will in order,and ask for a DNR order.Wow!I didn't have a hope.I feared going on chemo,but now I am sad I am unable to stay here a little longer.
Yes,Remember my motto,I will Not stop Believing,and again,enjoy every minute,not day,or week,but minute,being grateful.
I have been unwell for a couple years.Very tired,a tiredness I have never known before,lost a lot of weight.I am only 99 pounds.I am not a big lady,but was around 114lbs,in good health.
I put off my symptoms to other causes,so I am in shock,to tell you the truth.I thought I just might need some iron.
My lung cancer from 2006,had no showing of symptoms til last year,but I never got a scan.
Now that this is a reality wake up,I am sure my feelings,my health,my questions,my stress will become my final days.The odds are not good,they say 2 months,maybe.I am scared.
I hope I can share with you so if you are going through this maybe we can relate.
Just catching you up on this new journey,my friends.
Keeping it short,but will post regularly with regard to my state of affairs.

So Remember


Tuesday, April 12, 2016

The Beginning of the End

Welcome back my loyal friends.After Ten years of cancer free Lung Cancer,it's back,not curable,stage 3 Adenocarcinoma.
I just got told all this.I found last time 2006,that speaking to you,was the way I stayed together.Your prayers,kindness and empathy,were my spiritual guardians.
I hope to share the emotional,and physical sides of "End of Life".Most of all the spiritualism.
I have had many close calls of death,as I have written for 8 yrs.
There are amazing blogs on line now,since I started.I type with one finger,and am not to tech,so please bare with me.
Short post,to let you know,I am here for you,and hope you are there for me.
I am not in the blogging business,just a person who can express through words,what I feel inside.
Please checkout my past posts to see how I got to here.
And Remember;

Don't Stop Believing!


Thursday, December 11, 2014

Sweeter than Wine

Welcome friends.
I am so Thankful to be posting once more.I am still in remission from my lung cancer 8 yrs.I have been re reading my past stories to you over the years.I know that all the prayers and well wishes on your comments ,have been a huge part of my mental and physical recovery.Thank You. I am moving along in my life,slow,but with thoughts of life Not death.I would like to post more positive posts in the new year,and also info on lung cancer persons.
I would like to wish everyone a very happy,healthy,New Year.I look forward to hearing from all of you.
til next time
Don't stop Believing!


Thursday, October 17, 2013

Bless the Lord!Seven Years and still Here

Welcome back to all my faithful readers,and Welcome to my new friends.
I have not posted on here for over a year so here goes some past news for my readers that are here for the first time and an update to those that have been following me for seven years.
 I was diagnosed with (BAC) Lung canser non small cell of the right lobe of my lung.I had a removel of that lobe and have remained lung cancer free for 7.5 years.Please read from the beginning of my blog to try to understand the emotional side of this deadly Cancer and all cancers to find how it affects everyone in the families of the victims.
For myself,this past year has been one of hope and of disappointment.That seems quite normal,but to me its been a run of "Murphey's Law".I am being doctored all over.I have a spevcialist for my every complaint.I have an oncologist for my lungs,a nephrologist(kidney) for my loss of one kidney 2 years ago.
The last eight months,I have been almost completely bad ridden with three compressed fractures of the spinal column.Well,I feel like I missed my spring and my summer,and I missed writing my posts.
I am on a wait to see program with my doctors with regard to the cancer or cancers,as the case might be.It seems my doctor is quiter concerned about my recent three months of coughing,and shortness of breath.He is talking oxygen and perhaps another removel of a lobe or chemo.It is all getting scary again.
I lost another family e  member to Cancer a few weeks ago.He was only 50 yrs old.He left a family.There have been so many deaths from cancer over the last ten years it seems.
I am pretty healthy compared to other cancer vicyims.I many other health problems but I am learning to cope with the good days and bad.I also have great support from my husband.
I promise I will write more often,and stay tuned for more info on dealing with your cancer,emotions and spirit.

and Remember