Merry Christmas and a very Healthy Happy New Year to you all.May all your hopes and dreams come true,now and forever.
I have lots of Hope.I have lots of Dreams.Those two go together.I hope I can always Dream,and I Dream I can always Hope.
I like a New Year.I kind of feel like it is the first day back to school.I will get a new journal,and start to write nice and neat.I am sure I will continue that for awhile,but the truth....I will probably forget to write in it in a few months.L.O.L
My hope is that the lung cancer has not returned to eat me up.I have lost 20 pounds in the last three months,and that was not planned.I guess I am kind of worried,so...Now I will have to put some of my dreams on hold.
I hope that my one and only kidney does not fail.I have chosen not to go on "Dialysis".I am just trying to find the right diet right now to get healthy enough to fight what that throws at me.
I also dream.I dream that I will live another 20 years and I see myself beginning again,and NEVER,EVER,wasting any more time worrying so much again.
But most of all,I Pray,everyday,that I will live every moment like it is my last.I will give and receive love.I will be happy.
P.S I thought after 6 years of posting I would change the old photo.The previous photo showed my "Aura".This photo is the up to date one.I hope now you will know who you are really talking to.L.O.L
Just hard to face the age difference.
I will have a Merry Christmas with my loved ones and be Thankful.
I will have a good year!
so remember til next time....
DON'T STOP BELIEVING!
Believe
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Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Counting My Blessings for the 6th,7th,8th and 9th times Again!
Welcome Everyone.Happy Thanks Giving to all of my guests who are celebrating this day in their homes.I also wish everyone who reads my posts would also like to take the time to reflect on some of the moments of strife and glory,and to count your blessings as well.
Now,with that being said I will try to catch you all up on my latest news.
I have just recently had a bout of the cold/flu situation that has been going around here.I unfortunately,ended up with a few complications more.My lungs having had the lung cancer surgery,and my emphysema were not to able to keep up with the impact of a cold and I ended up with pneumonia.I have,Thankfully,recovered from that,but have increased my inhalers to compensate with my dry hacking cough and shortness of breath.
I also visited my "nephrologist"(kidney doctor),yesterday.He told me that my potassium level was quite low.He also noted that I had lost over ten pounds in the last few months.He is so concerned with the weight loss that he is going to be in touch with my lung cancer doctor.He really scared me,because I didn't think I would hear any thing regarding my cancer situation from him.I,as far as I know,do not have cancer in my kidney,so.....I am now a little alarmed.I have of course thought over and over again as to what else might have caused me to lose my weight,but for the life of me,I do not think any of my eating habits have changed.Inside myself,I just sort of want to try to gain some weight and eat the right foods to gain some needed "potassium"back in my body,and just take each day as it comes.
It is Christmas coming,and I really do not want to deal with any more decisions then I already have.I will keep you posted as to how that is going.Wish me luck.
Today,and everyday,I do count my blessings.I have written a post every year regarding the miracles and blessings that have happened to me.
I have been given many tests,many trials,and Thank God I am here to share my stories with you again.When you are faced with a doctor telling you that you only have a few weeks or months to live,you do STOP and think.The word live,becomes LIVE!In that moment,your life really does flash before your eyes.I have had that feeling each and every year with every fatal diagnosis that I have had made on my ailments.My life no longer flashes as much ,as I am living,or trying to live each minute,in the moment and have the foresight and not the hindsight of all the flashes as that first time.
We all have challenges in our lives,and we all have the ability to choose how we deal with them.
My blessings also go out to all of those brave souls who are facing cancer,to all those who have lost others to this battle,and to all the caregivers that get us through.
May God Bless You!
Til next time remember......
DON'T STOP BELIEVING!
Believe
Now,with that being said I will try to catch you all up on my latest news.
I have just recently had a bout of the cold/flu situation that has been going around here.I unfortunately,ended up with a few complications more.My lungs having had the lung cancer surgery,and my emphysema were not to able to keep up with the impact of a cold and I ended up with pneumonia.I have,Thankfully,recovered from that,but have increased my inhalers to compensate with my dry hacking cough and shortness of breath.
I also visited my "nephrologist"(kidney doctor),yesterday.He told me that my potassium level was quite low.He also noted that I had lost over ten pounds in the last few months.He is so concerned with the weight loss that he is going to be in touch with my lung cancer doctor.He really scared me,because I didn't think I would hear any thing regarding my cancer situation from him.I,as far as I know,do not have cancer in my kidney,so.....I am now a little alarmed.I have of course thought over and over again as to what else might have caused me to lose my weight,but for the life of me,I do not think any of my eating habits have changed.Inside myself,I just sort of want to try to gain some weight and eat the right foods to gain some needed "potassium"back in my body,and just take each day as it comes.
It is Christmas coming,and I really do not want to deal with any more decisions then I already have.I will keep you posted as to how that is going.Wish me luck.
Today,and everyday,I do count my blessings.I have written a post every year regarding the miracles and blessings that have happened to me.
I have been given many tests,many trials,and Thank God I am here to share my stories with you again.When you are faced with a doctor telling you that you only have a few weeks or months to live,you do STOP and think.The word live,becomes LIVE!In that moment,your life really does flash before your eyes.I have had that feeling each and every year with every fatal diagnosis that I have had made on my ailments.My life no longer flashes as much ,as I am living,or trying to live each minute,in the moment and have the foresight and not the hindsight of all the flashes as that first time.
We all have challenges in our lives,and we all have the ability to choose how we deal with them.
My blessings also go out to all of those brave souls who are facing cancer,to all those who have lost others to this battle,and to all the caregivers that get us through.
May God Bless You!
Til next time remember......
DON'T STOP BELIEVING!
Believe
Friday, October 14, 2011
Standing at the Crossroads
Well,Here I am again folks.Medically,I am at the crossroads.It seems neither of my choices will be good ones.I do not want to dwell on that right now.
I do however,want to tell you that I am not as dependant upon my husband as much.For several years I hardly got of my bed.I now get up and drive the car to my freelance position ,I was able to obtain.It doesn't pay much,but with my son and husband to support,every bit helps.I now look forward to getting out of bed in the morning and facing the day.Every step I take I feel like I am winning against the odds.Lung Cancer,COPD,Fibromalgia,Heart Disease and only one kidney functioning,I feel pretty darn good.I am not on oxygen yet,I have the availability of both legs and arms,(though sometimes they ache).I am here now and even if this is my final act,it has been a great play.
I still have lots on my plate physically.Every doctor appointment scares me.I have my "nephrologist"(kidney doctor),to see in a few weeks.Two of my specialists believe I am losing my only kidney and have mentioned the open heart surgery and the kidney transplant again.But.....I will not worry yet,as that only wastes the good moments.My lung cancer doctor feels a six month check up is due.My heart doctor still says I am a ticking time bomb.I do not know,I really sound in worse shape than I feel.
I want to let you all know to keep thinking positive,every day,even when stuff gets you so down.
So,Remember til next time
DON'T STOP BELIEVING!
Believe
I do however,want to tell you that I am not as dependant upon my husband as much.For several years I hardly got of my bed.I now get up and drive the car to my freelance position ,I was able to obtain.It doesn't pay much,but with my son and husband to support,every bit helps.I now look forward to getting out of bed in the morning and facing the day.Every step I take I feel like I am winning against the odds.Lung Cancer,COPD,Fibromalgia,Heart Disease and only one kidney functioning,I feel pretty darn good.I am not on oxygen yet,I have the availability of both legs and arms,(though sometimes they ache).I am here now and even if this is my final act,it has been a great play.
I still have lots on my plate physically.Every doctor appointment scares me.I have my "nephrologist"(kidney doctor),to see in a few weeks.Two of my specialists believe I am losing my only kidney and have mentioned the open heart surgery and the kidney transplant again.But.....I will not worry yet,as that only wastes the good moments.My lung cancer doctor feels a six month check up is due.My heart doctor still says I am a ticking time bomb.I do not know,I really sound in worse shape than I feel.
I want to let you all know to keep thinking positive,every day,even when stuff gets you so down.
So,Remember til next time
DON'T STOP BELIEVING!
Believe
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Ten Years of Dying
Welcome everyone.The title of this post sounds scary,but the rest of the title should be,"and the next ten years trying".This trial of deadly diagnosis's began way before lung cancer and COPD.This all began with a mammogram of my breasts in 1996.I had a CT scan that showed there were several lumps and they suggested a surgeon remove my breasts and the lumps.I walked into the hospital that day,and an angel appeared to me.The angel was a lady Doctor,who took the time to take a second look at the situation.Yes,Lo! and behold they turned into cysts and were drained and yes ,today I am without Breast Cancer.The following years came with heart and liver and now kidney disease and of course lung cancer.
I still am alive my friends.Yes,I am truly blessed,but I truly" believe"that with my faith in tomorrow,that I have survived the odds that were against me.I know that when the physical body takes over it can and will win.We have come along way with our technology,and the media is covering the warnings.I would like to see more screening done earliar.I would have liked to have been told I had the genetic genes that predisposed me to all of my problems.I think knowing would have made a difference in some of the choices i have had to make and made.I think I want to know when I am going to die.The worrying has already killed so much of me.
I am at the stage now where I do not even want to see a doctor.I do not want to touch on cancer subjects.I do not want to find out if I have to have open heart surgery or a kidney transplant.For awhile,I just want to let time and worries slip away.I am enjoying working at my passion again,and those days make me happy.I am really going to try to live the next ten years.
So,I hope on a possitive note.
Til next time ...Remember...
DON'T STOP BELIEVING!
Believe
I still am alive my friends.Yes,I am truly blessed,but I truly" believe"that with my faith in tomorrow,that I have survived the odds that were against me.I know that when the physical body takes over it can and will win.We have come along way with our technology,and the media is covering the warnings.I would like to see more screening done earliar.I would have liked to have been told I had the genetic genes that predisposed me to all of my problems.I think knowing would have made a difference in some of the choices i have had to make and made.I think I want to know when I am going to die.The worrying has already killed so much of me.
I am at the stage now where I do not even want to see a doctor.I do not want to touch on cancer subjects.I do not want to find out if I have to have open heart surgery or a kidney transplant.For awhile,I just want to let time and worries slip away.I am enjoying working at my passion again,and those days make me happy.I am really going to try to live the next ten years.
So,I hope on a possitive note.
Til next time ...Remember...
DON'T STOP BELIEVING!
Believe
Wednesday, July 06, 2011
COMFORTABLY NUMB
Welcome,and I am so sorry to not have kept you updated.
This time,no news,WAS,good news.
I saw my doctor that looks after my lung cancer,and after the chest x-ray,he informed me that,wait for it......No regrowth of the two inch tumor in my lung has occurred.Yes,Yes,Thank you God!.
This is past the five year mark for my lung cancer.There are very few lung cancer survivors.I am very blessed.
I still do not take anything for granted.I still do not wish for anything,I am comfortably numb.
I do not mean I am not moving,because,as of lately I have had new energy.I know that with the latest news on the cancer,I feel more positive about a future.Maybe not a long one,but maybe a little longer then was first thought.
I am still on hold for a few things yet though.I lost one of my kidneys about a year ago,and so now,I have to keep getting tests to make sure my other one,and only one is functioning properly.I worry lots if I get pains in my back or side,I still have lots of heart problems too,but I figure,if its going to happen,then its going to happen.I am on top of my own medical conditions at all times,and have the top docs looking after me.Life goes on.
I have found renewed energy in a passion of mine,that I am able to do again with confidence.I am out and about,instead of waiting to die in bed.I am feeling great .
I want to say right now,right here,that "Today is the first day of my new life".
Thank You all for all your prayers and well wishes,and thanks for coming back and riding along with me on this journey.I hope to be busy out in the work force for awhile,but I promise to post more often.
Til then Remember
DON'T STOP BELIEVING!
Believe
This time,no news,WAS,good news.
I saw my doctor that looks after my lung cancer,and after the chest x-ray,he informed me that,wait for it......No regrowth of the two inch tumor in my lung has occurred.Yes,Yes,Thank you God!.
This is past the five year mark for my lung cancer.There are very few lung cancer survivors.I am very blessed.
I still do not take anything for granted.I still do not wish for anything,I am comfortably numb.
I do not mean I am not moving,because,as of lately I have had new energy.I know that with the latest news on the cancer,I feel more positive about a future.Maybe not a long one,but maybe a little longer then was first thought.
I am still on hold for a few things yet though.I lost one of my kidneys about a year ago,and so now,I have to keep getting tests to make sure my other one,and only one is functioning properly.I worry lots if I get pains in my back or side,I still have lots of heart problems too,but I figure,if its going to happen,then its going to happen.I am on top of my own medical conditions at all times,and have the top docs looking after me.Life goes on.
I have found renewed energy in a passion of mine,that I am able to do again with confidence.I am out and about,instead of waiting to die in bed.I am feeling great .
I want to say right now,right here,that "Today is the first day of my new life".
Thank You all for all your prayers and well wishes,and thanks for coming back and riding along with me on this journey.I hope to be busy out in the work force for awhile,but I promise to post more often.
Til then Remember
DON'T STOP BELIEVING!
Believe
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