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Wednesday, April 27, 2016

When it Rains,it Pours


Welcome;Yes my friends,2016 has not been good for my family.I have been feeling tough for 3 years,with my situations.Three years ago,I began caring for my husband with his heart.I am 65,he is 69.We have been
Married 50 yrs.Well,I found out in November2015,I had incurable lung cancer.He took a bad Heart attack,on January 10th.He now has to look after me.I am not able to work,so that puts more pressure on.He can not look after our 1 acre property,and,on and on.I have been trying to save to pay for funeral,but never seems to work out.
It is so hard to actually pay,plan your own funeral.
My government paid me 500$ a month on disability,and when I turned 65 last month,they cut my cpp pension to 62$.Now,tell me,How does a woman with cancer alone live in Canada with 62$.This has just happened,and I intend to challenge this,so send me hope,Yeah!
Well,physically,I am so tired.I am scared to lie in my bed,just waiting to die.I have no doctor,just the main cancer care people.They do not see me anymore.They spent an hour,with no compassion and sent me home. I am to wait for the pain,then go to emergeny care,T!he organs will shut down one at a time,come when you have pains..Unbelievable!
We are losing our home,our car.I could see the car,but we are rural,and couldn't live without transport.
I know my regular readers over 10 yrs,are saying,she's angry,and your right.
Maybe this post isn't as positive,but it doesn't mean it not.
So Remember til next time
Don't Stop Believing.
Believe

Tuesday, April 19, 2016

Fatal Diagnosis

Welcome.The chest scan,the PET scan,and the Brochial
Biopsy revealed that the subcarinal lymph node has a large mass on it.It is a lymph node just below the trachea(wind pipe),on a branch with other nodes.
I saw the cancer care team radiologist,and he said he would do aggressive radiation,but I have too much lung volume loss from my lobotomy in my first stage.
Lung cancer in 2006.He will not risk it until palliative,as it would leave me on oxygen or kill me.
Then I saw the chemo doctor,and he said my cancer was incurable in me,because my body is not healthy enough,and it would not cure it anyway.He also told me,first appointment,Get your will in order,and ask for a DNR order.Wow!I didn't have a hope.I feared going on chemo,but now I am sad I am unable to stay here a little longer.
Yes,Remember my motto,I will Not stop Believing,and again,enjoy every minute,not day,or week,but minute,being grateful.
I have been unwell for a couple years.Very tired,a tiredness I have never known before,lost a lot of weight.I am only 99 pounds.I am not a big lady,but was around 114lbs,in good health.
I put off my symptoms to other causes,so I am in shock,to tell you the truth.I thought I just might need some iron.
My lung cancer from 2006,had no showing of symptoms til last year,but I never got a scan.
Now that this is a reality wake up,I am sure my feelings,my health,my questions,my stress will become my final days.The odds are not good,they say 2 months,maybe.I am scared.
I hope I can share with you so if you are going through this maybe we can relate.
Just catching you up on this new journey,my friends.
Keeping it short,but will post regularly with regard to my state of affairs.

So Remember
DON'T STOP BELIEVING!

Believe

Tuesday, April 12, 2016

The Beginning of the End


Welcome back my loyal friends.After Ten years of cancer free Lung Cancer,it's back,not curable,stage 3 Adenocarcinoma.
I just got told all this.I found last time 2006,that speaking to you,was the way I stayed together.Your prayers,kindness and empathy,were my spiritual guardians.
I hope to share the emotional,and physical sides of "End of Life".Most of all the spiritualism.
I have had many close calls of death,as I have written for 8 yrs.
There are amazing blogs on line now,since I started.I type with one finger,and am not to tech,so please bare with me.
Short post,to let you know,I am here for you,and hope you are there for me.
I am not in the blogging business,just a person who can express through words,what I feel inside.
Please checkout my past posts to see how I got to here.
And Remember;

Don't Stop Believing!

Believe

Thursday, December 11, 2014

Sweeter than Wine

Welcome friends.
I am so Thankful to be posting once more.I am still in remission from my lung cancer 8 yrs.I have been re reading my past stories to you over the years.I know that all the prayers and well wishes on your comments ,have been a huge part of my mental and physical recovery.Thank You. I am moving along in my life,slow,but with thoughts of life Not death.I would like to post more positive posts in the new year,and also info on lung cancer persons.
I would like to wish everyone a very happy,healthy,New Year.I look forward to hearing from all of you.
til next time
Remember
Don't stop Believing!

Believe

Thursday, October 17, 2013

Bless the Lord!Seven Years and still Here

Welcome back to all my faithful readers,and Welcome to my new friends.
I have not posted on here for over a year so here goes some past news for my readers that are here for the first time and an update to those that have been following me for seven years.
 I was diagnosed with (BAC) Lung canser non small cell of the right lobe of my lung.I had a removel of that lobe and have remained lung cancer free for 7.5 years.Please read from the beginning of my blog to try to understand the emotional side of this deadly Cancer and all cancers to find how it affects everyone in the families of the victims.
For myself,this past year has been one of hope and of disappointment.That seems quite normal,but to me its been a run of "Murphey's Law".I am being doctored all over.I have a spevcialist for my every complaint.I have an oncologist for my lungs,a nephrologist(kidney) for my loss of one kidney 2 years ago.
The last eight months,I have been almost completely bad ridden with three compressed fractures of the spinal column.Well,I feel like I missed my spring and my summer,and I missed writing my posts.
I am on a wait to see program with my doctors with regard to the cancer or cancers,as the case might be.It seems my doctor is quiter concerned about my recent three months of coughing,and shortness of breath.He is talking oxygen and perhaps another removel of a lobe or chemo.It is all getting scary again.
I lost another family e  member to Cancer a few weeks ago.He was only 50 yrs old.He left a family.There have been so many deaths from cancer over the last ten years it seems.
I am pretty healthy compared to other cancer vicyims.I many other health problems but I am learning to cope with the good days and bad.I also have great support from my husband.
I promise I will write more often,and stay tuned for more info on dealing with your cancer,emotions and spirit.

and Remember

DON'T STOP BELIEVING!

Believe

Thursday, September 06, 2012

Facing the Facts or Not?

Welcome back my faithful loyal readers.My delay in writing is good news.
I have survived another summer,and have enjoyed every minute of it.I postponed all my doctor appointments,(which you shouldn't do),and decided that I would stay worry free for a few months.I still have my bad days and the pains get bad now and again ,but the diagnosis the doctors give me,make me worse.
It truly seems that when I think I have one situation of my problems fixed another pops up.I am falling apart a little at a time.
Yes,We all need to face the facts and start to try to make changes in our lives when we have a fatal disease such as lung cancer,heart,kidney or other problems.I do face the truth everyday but sometimes I just don't feel I want to waste time in thinking.lol.
Lung Cancer is Brutal.I am so far a very blessed person to have survived my diagnosis in 2006.I do have other areas of cancer as well as lung that I am dealing with now as well.Lung cancer spreads so rapidly to the other organs such as brain and liver.My liver is still doing alright,and ,although my friends might sometimes disagree with me,I am sound in the brain area.My problem seems to be the genetic spread of cancer.I have been treated previously for cervical cancer in the late 90's and am now waiting results from a biopsy of the womb.I have also a few breast cysts that are being checked into.
Now,the list goes on.Would you like to wake up everyday and think  about that "things to do list"?
I still have a date with myself by the end of the month to prepare for all the doctor,patient routine for winter.
So....til then,I will sit back,enjoy a breath of fresh air,and face the facts tomorrow.

til then
Remember

Don't Stop Believing!

Believe

Sunday, June 10, 2012

MIRACLES DO HAPPEN

Hello,my friends.Yes,I am a walking,talking,living miracle.I have lived through over 9 terminal diagnosis's.I am here today for a reason,that is for sure.You have to have Faith and Believe.As early as 1996,I had one of my first scares with a date made for surgery to remove my breasts.The miracle was,that a doctor took the time to take a second look at the scan and said that there were six cysts and that they could be drained.I left a whole woman.Since then I have suffered Grand Mal seizures,Bells Palsy,two strokes,two heart attacks,and many more.In 2002 I was diagnosed with "Cirrhosis of the Liver".I was given less then 3 months to live.I weighed 87 lbs.I was dying.I prayed.Three months later,and after stopping alcohol my liver began to regenerate and after ten years of sobriety,I have a new liver.In 2006,the diagnosis of lung cancer was a tough one.I was faced with surgery to remove a 2.2" tumor on my right lobe of my lung.Stage 1 lung cancer.My odds of surgery were not good.I had very bad hypertension(high blood pressure) and had already had a heart attack.They got the cancer ,and I survived the operation and have been free of that for 6 years.God Bless.But yes,unfortunately,there is more.The good news,I am here.The bad news,is that I lost a kidney somehow a couple of years ago,and have been diagnosed with fibromalgia,(hardening of the  arteries}.I am also waiting to hear about a biopsy on my womb,as they suspect cancer there now.Oh well,So Far so good,so I keep the faith and most of all.
I DO BELIEVE IN MIRACLES!
So my friends.Please keep hoping and praying and even make believe that we can get through a lot of challenges in our life ,sometimes.
Til next time remember....

DON'T STOP BELIEVING!

Believe

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