Showing posts from February, 2008


The pain is back.This is happening too fast now.
I just wrote a post on here a couple of days ago and all seemed to be well.
I have been feeling very tired lately,and more short of breath than usual.
I thought that I was just getting down because of the long winter.
The pain seems to radiate through all my back.There is no cough,so I do not suspect pneumonia.
I am scared.
I heard that Lung Cancer was a very painful end.I do not know how strong I can be through this uncomfortable time.
I am starting to see the other side of this cancer.
I started having back aches four years ago.I thought that perhaps it was the sitting at the computer.I got a new bed,thinking it was the mattress.
The doctors gave me all sorts of muscle relaxants,pain killers and even physio therapy.
I went continuously to my doctor almost raging with trying to explain the pain.
I also suffered waves of nausea over this time as well.It was and still is not unusual for me to have the waves several times a day.
I think that after my…


As the time draws by this time of year ,I tend to go back,I do try to go forward most of the time,but this is different.

Most of you that are coming to this site are looking for some answers.

I do not profess to have them.

I have tried to relay some of the emotional changes as well as physical differences that you might encounter when diagnosed with "Lung Cancer".
Please read my previous posts.

I feel like I am writing backwards in time,because of the archiving system.

Before I start to scare you,let me tell you this.

I would do it over again tomorrow,without any hesitation,if it would extend my chances for a longer life.

Following is the morning scenario of a lung operation for Cancer.

It is four oclock in the morning and 35 degrees below zero outside.I am awake.I really do not think I slept.
I manage to dress myself.
It feels strange not putting on any make up.We leave the house at five,in the dark down the highway.
I am so…


My chest xray showed that the cancer had NOT returned,as of yet.My Dr. looked at the xray from four months ago and compared it to todays and said no recurrence anywhere else,so far.He said everything was good.

Thank you all for the comments and letters of support.You dont know how many times I read the comments,and I feel caring and hope all round me.

This appointment was important to me in many ways.

I am going to be 57 soon.I do not think that that is old.I have had visions of being on respirators and lung things.I have been down , thinking I was living on borrowed time.

This day is the "Defining Moment".

I am really getting this feeling that this is HOPE for a bit of a future.

The doctor,aka surgeon,said that because he caught my cancer early and managed to get the carcinoma tumor cut out,that I had a very good chance of survival for now.

They had discovered this 2 inch tumor on February 1 of 2006.I had a lobe removed on Feb.28th.

I was very blessed.I had a family doctor that got…