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Saturday, September 30, 2006

Does Knowing Make It Better

This image shows the lungs.In my case I had the right top lobe removed in a procedure called a"lobectomy".
Bronchioloalveolar Carcinoma is the Diagnosis of my Lung Cancer,also known as BAC.
I have been doing a lot of research on this type of cancer.It is one of the rarest of lung cancers.It accounts for only 4 to 17% of the cancers in the lung.This is also a Non-Smoking cancer.Oh Yes,You get it if you smoke,but you also get it if you don"t.
I think therefore my point is;This is not neccessarily all of my fault!Yes,I smoked,but does that cause you to feel less sorry for me?
Most of the viewpoints,from what I have read,say that it is our fault.I tend to disagree.
Some smokers will also die of being struck down by a bus,does that mean they asked for it?
Fate has its way of dealing out our punishments,one way or another.
On a happier note,Fate also deals out rewards.
So,I am doing all this research on "BAC",the short term for the big word.I keep reading clinical reports,and the outlook sure is not good.I want to be educated so I can be able to make the right decisions,but all I am doing so far is scaring the hell out of myself.
I do not know if I really want to know when I am going to die.Would You?
Interesting question for debate?
So I ask you
Does Knowing,Make it Better???

Monday, September 25, 2006


After my last post,I feel I should start again from the beginning,to get to where I am now.I hope that makes sense,if not let me explain.

All of my troubles and woes began upon receiving a Diagnosis of "Lung Cancer".That fateful day was February15th,this year.
I must suggest you read my previous posts,starting from"Welcome" ,to understand where I am going from here.

I would like to start anew in my life as well as on my blog.I have decided to write about the new events that are beginning,because of that diagnosis.

It hasn't changed me in negative ways at all,just more positive.

My cancer is non-small cell stage 1.I know some of you have been asking.My prognosis is a day to day situation.

Before I go on,and on,and on,I must again Thank You all for your comments and your blessings.This is what This BLOG is all about!

I also welcome you who are new and have possibly had or know someone who has had Lung Cancer,and feel that there is No hope.I think if you read on,you will find possitive proof that there is hope!

I am now at the stage of feeling good enough to start looking at all my possibilities.
I need to work,but wont be able to get a regular job at this point.I am looking around the internet and trying to find something that might interest,my interest.

Like I have said before,Theses last five years on "death Row" have set me back a bit.I am now five years older at 55.Sounds old,but I sure do not feel it.

I shall go for now and tell you how much I look forward to hearing from you all.


Wednesday, September 13, 2006


I am the happiest today!
I went to my six month appointment today .The doctor says the cancer has NOT come back.
It seems I have wasted so much time,wasting so much time.
I found myself not planning too far ahead these last seven months.I would start to think of things in the future,then the reality on the cancer issue would always come through .
Today I felt a renewal of all my hopes and dreams.Today I start living for Tomorrow.
I still have a few minor ailments to consider,nothing I will concern myself about too much at this time.
I will definately continue to write this blog,as I have made a lot of friends through this.
Again,I would like to Thank all of you for your concern and your prayers.Please stay with me on my journey,as I flounder my way to another stage of this precious Life.
Those of you who have read my previous posts will remember that I have tasted Death 3 times in the last four years.
I am definetly stronger,and I will Never take a moment for granted again.



Tuesday, September 12, 2006


Hello,my friends.
I was fortunate enough to receive these "Quotes" in one of my e-mails.
I feel it speaks about a lot I believe.I hope you can take something away from them also.

Be not afraid of growing slowly. Be afraid only of standing still. ~ Chinese Proverb ~

Pain and Suffering is inevitable but Misery is optional. ~ Unknown ~

Your success is only limited by your desire. ~ Unknown ~

We cannot become who we need to be by remaining who we are. ~ Unknown ~

The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeing new lands, but in seeing with new eyes. ~ Marcel Proust ~

The mind that made you sick can also make you well. ~ Unknown ~

Two may talk together under the same roof for many years, yet never really meet, and two others at first speech are old friends. ~ Unknown ~

To love and be loved is to feel the sun on both sides. ~ David Viscott ~

Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you'll die today. ~ James Dean ~

Anyone who thinks the sky is the limit, has a limited imagination. ~ Unknown ~

When your heart speaks, take good notes. ~ Unknown ~

If nothing ever changed there would be no butterflies. ~ Unknown ~

The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart. ~ Helen Keller ~

Arrange whatever pieces come your way. ~ Woolf ~

They are able who think they are able. ~ Virgil ~

Out of the strain of the doing, into the peace of the done. ~ Julia Louise Woodruff ~

When we remember that we are all mad, the mysteries disappear and life stands explained. ~ Mark Twain ~

I hear and I forget. I see and I remember. I do and I understand. ~ Chinese Proverb ~

The reason why birds can fly and we can't is simply that they have perfect faith, for to have faith is to have wings. ~ J. M. Barrie ~

How beautiful it is to do nothing And then rest afterward ~ Spanish Proverb ~ .

Don't Stop Believing


Wednesday, September 06, 2006


SIX MONTHS and I am still sticking around.
Time seems,at times,to move so slow,and yet it goes by so fast.
Where have I been this last little while?What have I accomplished?Could I have spent my time more wisely?
Is there a Bigger Plan in store?
These are not just questions I am asking today,these are the queries I encounter everyday.
I think though that at times we are not necessarily the ones that should answer our own questions.I am starting to think,that perhaps I might require others opinions.

I would like to make mention,that those of you who are now just new to my journal,that you might want to check out my previous posts ,to kind of get the drift of these ramblings.

I am still in limbo,as I wait for my six month check up.I have had no follow up since April.I will see the surgeon that performed my "Lobectomy" on my Lung,on September13th.
I am scared,damn it!,But I am tough as well.
It is a real challenge to know the truth of this deadly disease,but yet to try to convince yourself everyday that you will beat it.
There are many loved ones in my life,and so sometimes I must think of them as well.
I have been feeling well though ,and will continue to live one day at a time,and try to mentally beat this cancer,even if it starts to wither me on the inside.
Please,stay with me on this journal,as your letters and outstanding support help me with every step on this journey.

Don't Stop Believing!