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WASTED BREATH

When I first started writing this blog two years ago,it was called"My First Breath". Now I will tell you the reason for this title"Wasted Breath". When I was first diagnosed with Lung Cancer,I think I went into a mental coma.The shock of the news lasted for 2 weeks until the operation on my lung was over. I did see my life flash before me. I did not just see it flash once but many times a day. But Behold!The removal of the two inch cancerous tumor was removed successfully,with the removal of my right lobe of the lung. I now needed new plans. I knew then that I had died many times in my mind,so now I needed to live.Hence the title"my First Breath". In the here and now though,I am starting to think that I Wasted that Breath. At first,be ever so Thankful,I thought that I could give back.I was going to volunteer with a cancer facility,get exercise and basically change my ways. I think now I might be suffering from a little bit of punishment for not doing so. I

Catching my Breath

Thank You all for your comments and concerns. I did go to the emergency and my lungs were clear and I showed no respiratory problems,although I couldn't breathe.They gave me an expectorant but said"Get a chest xray as soon as possible,as I think the Cancer has returned. Well,That did not make me feel any better. I have a chest xray with the surgeon on may 30th.I will wait til then. The pain in the back is on going,but now my doc says it is the Fibromalgia. I am being set up with an oncologist.I have one now but he is just for the lungs.She will be for all parts of the body. I will feel better that they keep an eye on the rest of me ,before it spreads anywhere else. Who knows maybe this pain that a lot of us lung cancer victims speak of,is bone cancer.My doctor tells me my lungs are not in my back.I tell him I have to put heat on my back for relief of the pain.I have pain in that area 4-8 hours daily. But do I want to know if the cancer has spread?I am not sure. On one hand I