FROZEN ASSETS

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Welcome.
I apologize for the delay in my posts.
I have been around and back in my mind and my body of late.
I had been left with so many questions last time I wrote.I am now facing the answers.
I saw my cardiac specialist yesterday,to be told that I will most likely have a heart attack or else my kidneys are going to fail.Well!Try to absorb that diagnosis.Personally,I do not think I have allowed it to sink in yet.
I was okay with the waiting for all the results,now,much better than knowing.
They have also found other things like "Gout"I do not even know what that is,but I do not seem to have any symptoms.
This news is still so fresh to me.I want to put off any decisions about the options I was given until I see my Lung Cancer doctor on May 5th.I guess that sounds like an excuse?
I was accepted at a place of employment where I had been trying to get into for three years.I am on call for a position there.I suppose now that my plans are on hold.That saddens me,as I actually thought that working again would help me to keep looking forward to the next day.
I had planned a trip for the first time in 40 years,and maybe the last time.I will have to cancel my plans on that as well,I guess.
So much about living every day in the moment,cause sometimes the moments aren't so pleasant.
I am whining again.
I do have a happy bit of news to share.I have been given a chihuahua puppy that helps keep my mind on her instead of myself all the time.She needs me,so instead of me receiving all the time I can give too.
Lung Cancer,Emphysema,Heart attack,stroke,kidney disease,gout, and now high cholesterol to boot.
I am still breathing,so there is still a chance.L.O.L.
I have so much I want to do,but I suppose there will be a bit of delay.I guess I have "Frozen Assets".

Til next time remember

DON'T STOP BELIEVING!

Believe

Comments

EMR said…
You have a wonderful spirit...the one which does not die and that which most of us don't have in spirit of all working functional and good organs but not the positive attitude.
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