All I Want For Christmas is...

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I would like to wish you all a very merry holiday season.
I,myself,find it hard to believe that it is Christmas.The days to me seem to go by so fast.I guess that is because I am trying to live a long life,in the short life I have been given.
This time of year is hard on everybody.There are so many extra tasks that need to be done.It is even more tense on those that do not feel very well.
I am the type of person who,no matter how I have felt,have always managed to put and keep a smile on my face.I am one to not let anyone know that I am in pain.This year I am finding that that is getting a little more difficult to do.
I have been to the malls a few times,but the walking is really taking my breath away.My Emphysema is getting worse.
I also found out from the brain scan that I had a couple of strokes of the brain.I am told the strokes must have been mild,as I ,Thank God,have not had any major residual affects.I have found though,that my memory has suffered some impairment.I have also noticed that at times I will write or say words backwards.I am very worried along with my doctor that a major stroke of the brain will occur.I guess with all this,it doesn't make the Merry Christmas,too merry.
We are all adults in our party of five for Christmas,and all family,so I am sure if I have not baked all the cookies,or got everything on the list,they will understand.
All I want for Christmas is...
1.A cure for all types of Cancer.
2.For poverty to never exist.
3.For countries to stay at peace

I want for myself to feel better again.I don't want to go to ten different doctors twenty times a month.I want my husband and my children to not have to worry about me anymore.I want most of all to be myself again.
Lung cancer is only a fraction of all I am facing,but it is the combination of the emphysema,and fibromalgia that makes some days not so good.
I will as always though,kick myself up and get it all just right,and on time for Christmas,which I pray will be a very merry one.
So everybody,my point is...don't fret,just get on with it.
I have some good books from amazon on here for those of you with cancer or those who have loved ones with cancer.I have read most of them.Check them out!
A gret we site to read loads of cancer stories is
http://beingcancer.net


Have a very Merry Christmas

DON'T STOP BELIEVING!

Believe

Comments

nitrile gloves said…
What wonderful thoughts?I am surprised and amazed at your large largehearted nature.
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Lung Cancer said…
Nice Blog :D)
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Dennis Pyritz, RN said…
Great Christmas post! Keep up the excellent writing and may all your wishes come true. Thanks for the mention of beingcancer.net.
Take care, Dennis
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Whidbey Woman said…
Hi. I found your blog through Google. I am providing a link to it on mine... I also write about Cancer, in particular my husband's battle with Colon Cancer.
Wishing you the best in 2010...
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