WASTED BREATH

When I first started writing this blog two years ago,it was called"My First Breath".

Now I will tell you the reason for this title"Wasted Breath".

When I was first diagnosed with Lung Cancer,I think I went into a mental coma.The shock of the news lasted for 2 weeks until the operation on my lung was over.

I did see my life flash before me.

I did not just see it flash once but many times a day.

But Behold!The removal of the two inch cancerous tumor was removed successfully,with the removal of my right lobe of the lung.

I now needed new plans.

I knew then that I had died many times in my mind,so now I needed to live.Hence the title"my First Breath".

In the here and now though,I am starting to think that I Wasted that Breath.

At first,be ever so Thankful,I thought that I could give back.I was going to volunteer with a cancer facility,get exercise and basically change my ways.

I think now I might be suffering from a little bit of punishment for not doing so.

I am now starting to understand the saying"Make hay when the sun shines".

My breathing is shorter now,as the emphysema has worsened.I have become very tired lately due to lack of oxygen.So I am not able,in the same way to give back so much at this time.

I do hope that you wonderful people who have read and commented on my blog,don"t feel that I have "Wasted my Breath".

Pointing out now,that one day at a time is really where I am at right now.

This time I will just promise myself to enjoy Life More.



"Breathing should NEVER be taken for Granted.
There is a blog also that I find interesting ,a man that has had his whole lung removed.
check it out.

http://www.stigscancerblog.de/

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Please read previous blogs.
http://lungcancerlife.blogspot.com/2007/04/it-only-hurts-when-i-breathe.html

Catching my Breath

Thank You all for your comments and concerns.
I did go to the emergency and my lungs were clear and I showed no respiratory problems,although I couldn't breathe.They gave me an expectorant but said"Get a chest xray as soon as possible,as I think the Cancer has returned.
Well,That did not make me feel any better.
I have a chest xray with the surgeon on may 30th.I will wait til then.
The pain in the back is on going,but now my doc says it is the Fibromalgia.

I am being set up with an oncologist.I have one now but he is just for the lungs.She will be for all parts of the body.
I will feel better that they keep an eye on the rest of me ,before it spreads anywhere else.
Who knows maybe this pain that a lot of us lung cancer victims speak of,is bone cancer.My doctor tells me my lungs are not in my back.I tell him I have to put heat on my back for relief of the pain.I have pain in that area 4-8 hours daily.
But do I want to know if the cancer has spread?I am not sure.
On one hand I want to catch anything early and on the other hand ,I am afraid of all the emotions that I will go through again.
I do know I will decide when the time comes,and pray that I am right.
My scar from the operation,"lobe removal",is healing quite nicely.
I was reading the other day that they have a non-invasive surgery available now.it has been for a while,but my doctor didn't want to use it in my particular case.If I could I would have chose the less invasive one.I do have a 12" scar,but I am alive!
I am planning on runnuing some information video on here in the near future.
Please read my other posts so you can get the gist of this blog.
Til next time

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