LUNG CANCER;Time is of the Essence!

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This thought of death looming over me,is starting to drive me mad.
Do I have time to do all the things that I thought I would like to do?
Does it matter?
My dad used to tell me to make a five year plan.I wish I had listened.He passed away in 2002,but just before he did,he said my plans should be made six months.I laughed,thinking I had all the time in the world.
Now I feel like I am running out of "TIME ".
I know I am my own worst enemy at times.I find myself on line trying to find all the clinical information about my "lung cancer',and emphysema,and cirrhosis.
I want to stay informed.That is a good thing.
I have found though that " THOUGHTS" are the key to this diagnosis.
I have always been optimistic.I still am.I do however feel that I must be realistic.
I think I might just have to leave it up to the doctors to figure out the physical aspects.
Now the question is;How do I spend my time?
Maybe it is not about ME.
I am starting to think that perhaps leaving the people who love me a good memory,might just be more important.
I have a husband and three grown children.
I think I will give them my time.
Time is of the essence,and I pray that I spend it wisely!

Just my thoughts for the moment.
I have been feeling very well the last couple of months.I have not written for awhile,and yes,I am guilty of neglect of this site.
I am however enjoying my yard and the summer that is sweet,in this part of the country.
The humidity can be a bother when it is in the forties.The emphysema effects come to the forefront for sure.
I wish you all the best on your summer as well.
For now.........

DON'T STOP BELIEVING!

Believe

Comments

Grandmother Wren said…
I am so happy to see you here on your blog again, along with a note in my email.
I've been pondering Time a bit myself lately. (there are no coincidences...)
For a while I was using my daily walks as a time of "walking toward the future" but then... well it just didn't feel right.
Now I am trying to stay always in the Now - drawing each precious moment into my experience and giving myself as completely as I can to the loved ones around me.
Walking, living, loving and giving in the Now.
It's really all we have -
all anyone has - and it is a Gift beyond measure.
Thank you for writing this post.
Karen
8:25 PM
Myk said…
Lung cancer is a terrible disease. Cigarette smoking is the #1 cause of it!
11:08 PM
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