LUNG CANCER LIFE:

I am spiritually doing well.My breathing though is getting a bit worse.I must mention that with a part of my lung gone and severe "emphysema",I didn't expect much less.I am not on oxygen as of yet and I am very Thankful for that. Time seems to be moving so fast,and I am not moving quick enough to keep up it seems. I will see my surgeon on May 30 th ,and again the anxiety to see if and where the cancer has come back. I have " cirrhosis " of the liver ,and I am aware that the cancer of my lung can spread to my other organs.I have regular liver tests,but the last few months the counts are higher than normal.My doctor has warned me that The Liver could develop cancer cells. It is hard to deal with dying with lung cancer,but to have to think about a liver transplant at this stage of the game is the real breaker of my mind and heart. I have had many miracles in my past.I have seen the light at the tunnel before.I had a "Grand Mal" seizure in 2002.I heard the...

Smoking has been the cause of my demise.Forty-Three years of abuse.I should have figured when I had a cough that kept lasting 4 years ago,that I could be in trouble.I guess I was a typical addict and kept finding excuses. I now have lung cancer,and emphysema. When I smoked I did not eat.I actually weighed 89 lbs at one time.When I smoked I drank a lot of coffee,another drug that is questionable.When I smoked I sat,another quick way to die ,as no exercise ! When I smoked I stunk!Our social life even diminished,as anyone that did not smoke did not want to spend an evening with us inhaling ours. Quitting Smoking is also the hardest thing,and drug to stop. They have drug rehabs for Heroin, methedrine and alcohol,and insanity.They do not have quit smoking rehabs as far as I know. Our government collects the taxes on our smokes and then will not even hold themselves accountable to cover the costs of quitting. I will agree that the pictures that are required on cigarette packages make one ...

The title says it all really.This year has found me in a constant gasp.I know there is more to come, healthwise , with my lung cancer. I want to just forget about all of my problems now,and like spring,I want to come anew. The "law of attraction " has been my life lately. It has been five years of worrying about the next day in a bad way.I am changing my thoughts as I write this. I am one very blessed,lucky person.I look fine,I only have the one scar from the lung operation and I can walk and talk.I feel that with a greater pronounciation of What I can do, instead of What I can not,will be the best way to go from here. My "Emphysema" is still a problem.I really havent been seen by a specialist for that.I will get to that after I go out and have some fun! "My first breath" was the name of this blog when I started writing this a year ago.I have had many breaths since,that I never thought I would have. I am one of the very few,who have made it this far afte...

The four month wait is over.I saw my surgeon last Wednesday. There is no return of the"CANCER".I am still at stage 1,or so I believe. My heart was pounding as I waited for the x-ray results. I tell you,I went through everybody and everything in my life that day and the days leading up to the appointment .I could actually feel my heart in my stomach.I was so happy to hear that the x-ray looked good that I almost ran out of the room.I forgot to even ask any questions.I am just starting to relax a little now,I think I was in shock. It has been almost a year since they diagnosed me with"Lung Cancer".I have since had the " lobectomy " to remove a tumor, as well as the right lobe of my lung.I was very fortunate to have had the CT scan and it was detected on time.I do know that some cancers have progressed too far by time of detection and therefore are not able to be surgically repaired. I am one of the fortunate.I can say that now,as I recall my doubts this last...

I see "The Surgeon" that is dealing with my "Lung Cancer"on January 31st.He will take an x-ray of my lung and tell me if my Cancer has spread.I think I already know the answer. I am afraid this time.I feel so very tired.I do not know if this is caused by my lungs,but it must be. I still have my positive attitude,but I am not senseless regarding the way that I feel physically. I had good days and bad days.I now have mostly bad days. I have "emphysema".I am having more trouble getting and keeping my breath lately. I Thank God that I am not on oxygen,yet. I have a Fatal Disease!The worst part of this,is the not knowing.I can read information on my type of cancer and through a bit of easy math,I can roughly figure out when I will die. It may sound easy,but it is against the human spirit to accept this fact. If what I read and hear about "Lung Cancer' is true,then I will die very soon.If I talked my mind into believing this,I will die sooner. What if ...

My husband got through his operation.I think in my last post I mentioned that he had a surgery planned in January.Well,We went to his pre admission check up,and after examination,they arranged " IMMEDIATE " surgery.The operation was four hours.It is a week today that we were wondering what effects would happen and When? The doctors advised us that he will be recovering for at least 3 months. My Christmas Blessing is to have him back with me.We have been given a little longer. My health is holding up.My lungs are painful at times lately though.I find it is starting to hurt when I breathe.I know though that I must kick in more now that my husband needs me,so I will be strong enough. I see my cancer Doctor at the end of January.I am getting worried on that appointment.I feel like the cancer has spread into my other lung.If the cancer isn't spreading,then as we speak I must have pneumonia ,again."The lesser of two evils". I am strong and will be able to get through...

My doctor appointment is January 31st.I will find out if I have reached "stage 2" in my "lung cancer'. I have just had and am having a new crisis..My husband has been discovered to have an aneurysm in his aorta.In laymen terms ,he can have a heart attack at any second, We went to the hospital 4 days ago,they were ready to operate with open heart surgery.He was told that they would operate on January 2nd. I have always been one to be possitive.I am now utterly in shock with this happening. How much more can one handle. My husband and I have been together for 41 years.He looks after me.Now What. I am myself still recovering from my"lobectomy'8 months ago.We are still both in our fifties.This is one heck of a test or something. My husband has always looked after me and all the responsibilities.I do not want to focus on me right now either so it is tough with me knowing that I will die soon,and even more frightening to not know when or if my husband is not far ...